Date:	2006-08-17 10:39
Subject:	Volunteering Sucks
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Mood:	crappy

Volunteering sucks! If everything goes well, you get a thank you but if things go wrong, you pay a high price for it.

I volunteered to help a friend do the layout and design of a book recently. It was my first time doing a book and didn't really know what I was getting into. It didn't help that the schedule was tight and I could only start work when the photos and the text were submitted.

The submission of the photos and text were delayed by about a month and that ate into the time that was allocated for doing the layout and design. The already tight schedule was made even tighter. It was just crazy. I worked till early in the morning everyday, transferring 100 over pages of text from a word document to a freehand file; adjusting the layout millimeter by millimeter on every single page.

Just when I finished laying out the whole book, we decided to change the layout to reflect a more coffee table feel. Shit! I had to redo every single page again and due to the new layout, the book increased to 200 over pages.

When the new layout was completed, I needed someone to go through the whole book to check for mistakes and also to make sure that nothing was missed out during the transferring of text. However, on the evening when we were suppose to do that, the project leader said that he has been going through the book for the umpteenth time and is sick and tired of it. So a thorough check wasn't done and only some minor mistakes which another guy had picked out earlier were corrected. And the book went to print.

Were there mistakes? What do you think? Of course there were and we paid dearly for it

Whenever someone shares with me how he has found someone he likes or they are happily dating someone, I can't help but feel a tinge of sadness for myself. I would tell them I'm happy for them but am I genuinely happy?

Date:	2006-04-06 10:30
Subject:	To Hell With E-Switch Part II
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Mood:	cheerful

I just got a call from CASE informing me that E-Switch has agreed to refund me the $600 and terminate my memebership. Hurray!!

I have finally lodged a compliant with CASE against E-Switch. They are in breach of the Consumer Protection (Fair Trading) Act. Hopefully whoever is in the same situation and does a search on the internet about E-Switch will be able to chance upon my entry. They will at least know they can do something about the contract that they have signed.

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Date:	2005-09-06 23:24
Subject:	Heart Attack
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Mood:	depressed

The two persons I'm closest to in my reservist unit will not be around during my coming 6th high key ICT on 15 Sept.

D, a gay guy went for further studies after the third high key ICT. So I was left with Ronnie, my platoon sergent, but I just found out that Ronnie might not be joining us this time round or even forever. He had a heart attack a week back and was given MC until end of the month.

The news was kind of shocking. Heart attack at such a young age? He is the same age as me (33) and the last thing I expected was a heart attack. You just never know what could happen if you don't watch your health.

He will be seeing the camp MO this Thursday and he will most likely get down graded. He had always joked about hitting his leg with an ET stick to get down graded. Never would he expect that he might finally get down graded but I'm sure he wished this hadn't happened, at least not this way.

This will be a lonely ICT. No more buddies. I will miss Ronnie. We have been through 4 high key ICTs and 3 low key ICTs with him. He has been a big brother to me through all the ICTs, looking after me, watching my back, making me laugh, teasing me. He and D have made my ICTs bearable. I look forward to seeing them every ICT. What will I look forward to this ICT? What will make it bearable? My heart is kind of heavy.

Date:	2005-09-05 23:59
Subject:	Found
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

I found the wristband! So happy! It was clipped with my mom's pants on the bamboo for drying. I can sleep peacefully now.

Date:	2005-09-05 23:46
Subject:	Nike wristband watch
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

I am very upset. One of my the wristband from my Nike wristband watch is lost. I put it in the wash last night and I don't know how my mom wash until its gone. I put it in the laundry bag together with my t-shirt but she claims she never see it when she took the t-shirt out of the bag after the wash.

I want to be angry with my mom but then I feel bad as her eyesight has been failing due to diabetes. I try to tell myself, its just one of the 3 wristbands, no point getting upset and angry over some material stuff. I hope it will appear somewhere like stuck inbetween clothes or something but I doubt so.

Date:	2005-09-05 15:11
Subject:	Blood Test and more...
Security:	Public
Mood:	embarrassed

I realised that I will never be an intravenous drug user cos i have needle phobia. Since I don't like needles, I also do not like blood test. I have been trying to procastinate this blood test which I have to go for my radiation license. I finally went today.

I thought the doctor would just draw my blood and that's it. Didn't know that there would be other examinations. Halfway through the examination, i was told to strip to my underwear. I was trying to recall what underwear i was wearing and I remembered I was wearing one of my thongs. Shucks! if I had known that I would be asked to strip, I would have worn a less revealing underwear. The worst thing was it was a female doctor. If it's a cute male doctor, that would have been a differnt story.

So no choice, had to strip and thank goodness I had to lie down so she didn't see much of the rear.

Date:	2005-08-23 21:26
Subject:	Touch
Security:	Public
Mood:	melancholy

I yearn for a TOUCH
a TOUCH that brings warmth
a TOUCH filled with love
a TOUCH that unites

I yearn for a TOUCH
a TOUCH that soothes away the loneliness
a TOUCH that comforts
a TOUCH that heals

I yearn for a TOUCH
that is not temporal
that is eternal
that is happiness

I am yearning for a TOUCH

I have to say I'm really proud of Spaces for what they did with A Nation in Concert. They have brought joy and a sense of fulfilment to the many disabled children and adults who performed that day. But I can't say the same for the VWOs (Voluntary Welfare Organisations) to which the performers fall under. Other than the thank you notes received from the directors after the concert, I could barely see their involvement in the whole project, which is very sad.

Here is an external volunteer charity organisation offering to help them raise funds for the people under their charge and they just sit there and do nothing. I don't see them promoting the concert or pushing for ticket sales. If they don't feel for their own people and support them, how can they expect the public to do the same? People complain that small charitable organisations always get overlooked when it comes to donation but when someone comes along and help them, do they do anything?

Some people say that the gay community isn't supportive of the event but I beg to differ. About 80% - 90% of the volunteers for this project are gay. We are suppose to form only 10% of the population, so where is the other 90%? What are they doing? The biggest donor might be straight but he still doesn't make up the 90%. Ok, you might say that is just the volunteers, what about the audience. I don't know what's the percentage of gay audience that day but if there were really a poor response, can one really blame the gay community if we choose not to advertise the event through gay portals for fear of being associated as being a gay organisation?

Frankly speaking, I don't really feel for this project, not because I don't care for the disabled but the attitude of the VWOs really put me off. However, I have to say after watching the concert in full that night, I was really touched. There were moments when I was almost brought to tears and it really saddens me that there is just so much the VWO can or is willing to do for them. I don't know which is worse, the NKF having lots of money or they complaining and not doing anything?

Date:	2005-06-17 15:09
Subject:	Exceed Floor Loading
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Mood:	stressed

Shit! I just realised that the machine that I am going to bring in to my lab exceeds the permissible floor loading of the building. I should have checked before hand.

The worst thing was I have removed 2 fume cupboards to make way for the machine and the building of a new partition to house the machine is suppsoe to start next Monday. So stressed! Let's hope we can spread the load by having a base plate. If we can't move in the machine after all the work that has been done, I'm dead meat.

Date:	2005-04-18 13:11
Subject:	Straight But Likes Guys (Part 2)
Security:	Public
Mood:	bitchy

I thought I was never going to hear from the straight guy who likes guy from SgBoy. But surprisingly, he sms me a few days back and said let's meet up. Out of curiosity, I agreed.

Curiosity didn't kill the cat but killed me this time. What greeted me was this skinny, ugly, obviously gay guy who speaks in broken English. I am definitely convinced now that he is the ultimate denial case. You might call me snobbish but I really have no patience for guys who in such immense denial.

Date:	2005-04-18 12:56
Subject:	M
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Mood:	calm

M just told me that when I rejected him, he was so devastated that he couldn't work the next day and had to take leave. I didn't know I had so much effect on him.

That was 2 years ago. He is happily attached now. Me, i am still single. Did I make a mistake then? There is a slight tinge of regret but I quickly brushed it aside. I seldom regret what I have or have not done and I'm not going to regret now. It might have been a mistake but it was a decision made and I can't turn back the clock, so the only way is to move forward.

I told M, "Well you've found someone better".

Date:	2005-04-03 21:03
Subject:	Straight But Likes Guys
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused

I just recieved a message from this guy from SgBoy who wants to know me better. So, naturally I went to check out his profile. Under sexuality, it's stated that he is straight.

Since he left his hp no. in the message, I decided to sms him to clarify his sexuality. His reply was "Str8 but like guys". Hello! is that such a thing as "straight but like guys"? I felt like replying "No, that's not str8, that's denial" but decided to be kind at the last minute and replied "guys who like guys don't usually call themselves straight". Obviously, that was the end of the sms exchange.

I mean, is that the ultimate case of denial or what? If you are really straight, would you like guys? At most you will say you are bisexual and I will still be able to accept that. That is at least not such a serious case of denial. But to claim you are straight and still like guys... c'mon stop kidding yourself. I can't imagine how messed up this guy is and I hope he accepts himself someday.

Date:	2005-02-15 16:47
Subject:	Swollen Toes
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Mood:	relieved

What seem to have started as mosquito bites have started to look more like rashes.

I was woken up last night at 4am by the unbearable itch on both my feet, especially at the toes. There seem to have been more "mosquito bites". The more I scratch the more itchy it got. So from 4 to the time when have to get up for work, I didn't sleep much.

When I checked in the morning, my toes were swollen and the "mosquito bites" seem to have transformed into rashes. It got worse after lunch and I decided to see the doctor. It was confirmed that it was an allergy reaction. The only possible cause seem to be the alcohol that I had at rubrix's place but I have never had such reactions before from previous party.

Anyway whatever the cause, I'm glad the itch and swelling are subsiding fast after the medication.

No, not me. I am not so lucky. A friend of mine just told me the guy he has been yearning for has finally made up his mind to be with my friend. He realised he loves my friend. I told my friend I am happy for him and congratulated him, but why am I tearing?

Oh that is bad news... I want to die at 65 not 78!

Date:	2005-01-17 10:22
Subject:	The Best Curry Puff
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Mood:	cheerful

You don't usually get them hot but at this malay stall at the Telok Blangah Way food centre, you get your curry puff piping hot. It is freshly made and it taste wonderful. It's cheap as well; 40¢ for sardine, 60¢ for potato egg and potato chicken. It's really value for money considering the size of the curry puff.

The food centre is located opposite the Mount Faber Safra Club. Whenever I gym there, I never fail to buy a curry puff after my gym session. It's the best curry puff I've eaten so far.

Adultery has its own morality. Is it morally right to tell the person whom you committed adultery with that you do not want to fuck him or her anymore because you want to be back with your partner?

It might sound ridiculous but think again.